YouTube star Yousef “Fouseytube” Erakat is sparking concern across social media after posting a few emotional captions to Instagram on January 23.
Fouseytube notably returned to YouTube in late 2019, following the aftermath of his disastrous July 15 event that ended in a purported bomb threat.
While he later threw himself into the sport of boxing, his loss against fellow content creator Slim hit him hard in more ways than one, with Erakat admitting he felt he “had no purpose” and was “alone” due to his family’s move.
After debuting his rhinoplasty in mid-January, it seemed like the YouTuber was fully recovered from his post-match blues; but this may not be the case, as his forthcoming social media posts are once again causing fans concern over his mental health.
In an Instagram caption uploaded on January 24, Erakat once again showcased his recovering nose, admitting to struggling with unhappiness and claiming that his feelings stem from a lack of productivity in wake of his operation.
“I feel like a failure,” the YouTuber wrote. “A loser. And I am so, so, so hard on myself. I’m not really doing anything with my life, and the feeling of not doing anything productive kills.”
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( @fashionnovamen fashionnovapartner ) instagram captions have helped me breathe recently so here it goes. i’m coming to you from the heart. my source of unhappiness comes from feeling like a failure. i feel like a failure. a loser. and i am so so so hard on myself. i’m not really doing anything with my life and the feeling of not doing anything productive kills. i know what i want to do. i want to act. my mind is trying to talk me out of posting this as i type it but it’s my truth right now as bad as the energy is. i want to work. i want to be busy. but my life is not that at the moment. so the difference between expectations vs reality is suffocating. this is all without even bringing up comparison being the thief of happiness. i feel like this without having to compare myself to any of the perfect lives i scroll through everyday. i dunno man. i just want to start being honest and open with my feelings. i feel like a failure today. i don’t want to have to post and pretend like i’m not. ?
“I know what I want to do,” he continued. “I want to act. My mind is trying to talk me out of posting this as I type it, but it’s my truth right now, as bad as the energy is. I want to work. I want to be busy. But my life is not that at the moment.”
Fousey also uploaded two separate photos to his Instagram story, where he claimed he wanted someone to “hang out with” and that he’d been “crying all day.”
While this isn’t the first time Fousey has expressed such feelings, his audience continues to send him support and advice, and the creator later stated that his emotional posts could be the result of post-surgical depression.