YouTube star Tana Mongeau has opened up about the “truth” behind her whirlwind relationship with Jake Paul, and revealed why their relationship has gone south.
Tana and Jake started dating in April, and were later unofficially married in a lavish ceremony on July 28 after the Team 10 founder proposed to the MTV starlet during her 21st birthday celebrations on June 24.
On December 29, the 21-year-old uploaded an emotional YouTube video titled “the truth about everything” in which she opened up about the current state of her marriage, and why it’s not as great as it appears on the surface.
The YouTuber started the speech about her husband by stating that she is “unhappy” with the way that her marriage is portrayed publicly. “I am so unhappy with the way my relationship looks in the public eye, and I’ve done so much pretending I don’t care when I do,” she said. “I did so much of being the “cool girl” and not “caring” and I think I just put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself.”
“It was the best feeling in the world to be so on the same page with someone, it was like a drug,” Tana stated when talking about when they first started dating. “Something that was making me the happiest, most motivated, most inspired I’d ever been was also simultaneously helping me succeed and achieve so many dreams I’d had.”
She then detailed how not being honest about her true feelings towards her husband made it harder for her after their wedding. “Everyone thought it for clout and fame, and that made it so much worse for me mentally,” she said. “After me and Jake got married, I feel like everything changed.”
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The MTV star also addressed the photograph that surfaced online of Jake Paul and his ex-girlfriend Erika Costell eating lunch together, and explained how it made her feel, even though she’d “greenlit” their open relationship.
“I felt like I was opening my phone every day to something that just broke me further,” she stated. “Finding out about the Erika s**t on Twitter killed me, because Jake and I had so many conversations where he like villainized her, and I spent so much time trying to be everything she wasn’t.”
Tana then went on to reveal how she felt about her husband’s new song about other ex-girlfriend Alissa Violet, and his Instagram upload of the two of them when they were together. “It’s very weird now with all this Alissa s**t, because I spent so much time thinking he was so hurt by it. To be fair, Jake did tell me he wrote this song, and that he was going to allude to being about Alissa, but I didn’t think he was gonna post that photo.”
Despite all of this, the YouTuber insists that none of this is her beau’s fault, and that the blame lies on her for not being honest from the start with the way their relationship was going, and claims that they’re still together – for now.
“Jake and I both have these psycho busy lives, and trying to fit each other in just gets harder and harder, and so many things keep hurting me further. I don’t ever want to be on bad terms [with him], I don’t ever want to hate each other.”