TikTok star Nessa Barrett opens up on first suicide attempt in new song

Georgina Smith
TikTok star Nessa Barrett in an Instagram selfie

TikToker and singer Nessa Barrett opened up about her first suicide attempt four years ago in a snippet of a new song she wrote, that even features the voice of her father in the intro.

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Nessa Barrett is an 18-year-old TikTok star, who has over 14 million followers on the app. She’s been posting lip-sync content to the app since she joined in early 2019, however she is also keen on developing her music career and has released several songs.

In 2020, she released hit singles, ‘if u love me’ and ‘Pain,’ and later in the year went on to tease a collaboration with fellow TikTok star Jaden Hossler.

Nessa Barrett poses for a picture in front of the sky
Nessa is getting more popular on TikTok by the day.

Nessa has also experienced a great deal of hate online, and in the past has been forced to respond to trolls who were telling her to end her own life, telling them, “can people please stop telling me to kill myself? I don’t need to hear it anymore on top of my own thoughts I battle every day.”

It’s safe to say fans love her stunning voice, and they were blown away when she introduced a snippet of a new song she wrote recently on TikTok, though the topic of the song was very close to Nessa’s heart.

In the caption, she revealed she, “wrote a song the other night about my first suicide attempt. My dad was the one who found me so we used his voice on it. This is how I cope.” She then explained in the comments that this attempt happened four years ago.

The heartbreaking intro to the song shows her father recreating his 911 call, saying, “hello, please, my daughter, I think she took some pills. There’s a bottle here, and it’s like almost empty, please somebody help me out, please somebody, now.”

Nessa’s dad wrote a note about the song in the comments. “Hardest thing I’ve ever had to record and go through,” he said, “but so blessed you are here, and so proud of you turning this day into a positive way to help others.”

Nessa Barrett's father comments on her TikTok

Fans and friends sent their love to Nessa for the beautiful song in the comments, complimenting her voice and talent.

Whether the TikTok star will release ‘911’ in full is yet to be seen, but many hope they will get an opportunity to hear the touching piece in its entirety.


If you or somebody you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, you can reach out to the Samaritans (116 123) in the United Kingdom, or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) in the USA. For a list of worldwide hotlines, click here.

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Georgina was formerly an entertainment writer for Dexerto. She covered all aspects of influencer culture on TikTok and more, including creators such as Charli D’Amelio and Addison Rae. She also wrote about hit reality shows such as Love Island and Below Deck.