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Behzinga opens up about suicide attempt and what stopped him

Published: 2/Jul/2020 17:12

by Jacob Hale


Popular UK YouTuber and Sidemen member Ethan ‘Behzinga’ Payne has opened up on one of the darkest times of his life, revealing a secret suicide attempt several years ago – and why he didn’t go ahead with it.

As part of the Sidemen, Behzinga is often seen as lighthearted and fun-loving, and this is a side of him that many fans will be completely unaware of and seem truly out of character.

In recent months, he has been documenting his incredible weight loss journey and even worked on the commentary desk for Sky Sports during the KSI vs Logan Paul YouTube boxing event.

Youtubers KSI and Behzinga
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Behzinga (right) is part of KSI’s YouTube group, the Sidemen.

Obviously, though, as with anyone else, Payne’s life and career hasn’t all been fun and games, as he spoke about during a YouTube video uploaded on July 1.

During the video, Behzinga took questions from fans that were, for the most part, funny and just a bit awkward, but one question, in particular, spurred Ethan to speak on troubles he has faced.

The question asked was a simple one: “What’s the hardest time you’ve had to go through?” Not many expected the candid honesty that came in the response, though.

“I would say I’ve struggled with my battles with depression,” he said, seemingly uncomfortable about broaching the subject. “I’ve never been to the doctors about it, but I would say, and people around me would probably say ‘yes, you’ve been awfully depressed at times.”

He continued: “In those times, I have done some very stupid things… I got in my car, p**sed as a fart (British slang for very drunk). I got in that car with the intention of not getting back out of it.”

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He went on to say that not only did he put himself in danger, but he put other people in danger too, calling it “one of the most stupid things I’ve ever done in my life” and that it was “very selfish.”

He then confessed that he had a moment of realization while on his “rampage,” and simply asked himself what he was doing, imagining how everybody who cared about him would react if he did do that.

It got increasingly emotional as the story went on, with Payne clearly still feeling upset about the ordeal – but, fortunately, he clearly realizes the error of his ways and is thriving today, with both himself and the Sidemen bigger and more successful than they ever have been.

If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or know anyone that is, and you would like to talk to someone, please reach out and call the Suicide Prevention Helpline 1-800-273-8255 (USA) or the Samaritans 116-123 (UK).


James Charles slays Kylie Jenner’s Halloween makeup with fierce look

Published: 27/Oct/2020 23:06

by Virginia Glaze


Social media mogul and reality tv star Kylie Jenner is known as much for her lipstick line as she is for her over-the-top Halloween costumes, and one of her 2020 looks absolutely “killed” the competition — in part due to the talents of James Charles.

As soon as Halloween rolls around — even during the current health crisis — fans look toward to the crazy costumes that celebrities will pull off, which is almost always a visual treat due to their top-tier budgets and friendships with special effects artists.

Kylie Jenner is one such celeb, who has turned heads across the net for her rendition of a Barbie doll and Ariel from the Little Mermaid — not to mention the time she dressed up as a woodland fairy.

However, her latest costume has taken a more “wild” turn, as inspired by her brand-new Cheetah-themed makeup collection.

Kylie Jenner shows off her fairy costume for Halloween.
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Kylie Jenner has completely floored fans throughout the years with her creative Halloween costumes, one of which was a classic fairy.

Partnering up with YouTuber-slash-makeup artist James Charles, Kylie decided to go full-on big cat, with Charles lending his own talents to deliver some stunning special effects.

Using tissue and liquid latex, James created three fake slash marks on her left cheek, as though Kylie had been scratched by the very Cheetah from her makeup collection.

After applying the rest of her makeup — also using the Cheetah collection — Charles completed the look by using black and red eyeshadows, as well as fake blood, to create a surprisingly realistic facial injury.

It’s clear that no cat scratch is going to get Kylie down, though, as evidenced by how amazingly fierce the entire ensemble came together, which the two showed off in a no-nonsense Instagram photo.

As for Kylie’s actual Halloween costume on the official holiday, she isn’t giving out any hints, preferring to keep it a surprise on the actual day (even though James tried his best to get her to spill the beans).


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Considering the incredible creativity behind some of her most beloved costumes in the past, fans can safely bet that it’s probably worth the wait — especially if this one is anything to go by.