Behzinga opens up about suicide attempt and what stopped him

Published: 2/Jul/2020 17:12

by Jacob Hale


Popular UK YouTuber and Sidemen member Ethan ‘Behzinga’ Payne has opened up on one of the darkest times of his life, revealing a secret suicide attempt several years ago – and why he didn’t go ahead with it.

As part of the Sidemen, Behzinga is often seen as lighthearted and fun-loving, and this is a side of him that many fans will be completely unaware of and seem truly out of character.

In recent months, he has been documenting his incredible weight loss journey and even worked on the commentary desk for Sky Sports during the KSI vs Logan Paul YouTube boxing event.

Youtubers KSI and Behzinga
Instagram: behzingagram
Behzinga (right) is part of KSI’s YouTube group, the Sidemen.

Obviously, though, as with anyone else, Payne’s life and career hasn’t all been fun and games, as he spoke about during a YouTube video uploaded on July 1.

During the video, Behzinga took questions from fans that were, for the most part, funny and just a bit awkward, but one question, in particular, spurred Ethan to speak on troubles he has faced.

The question asked was a simple one: “What’s the hardest time you’ve had to go through?” Not many expected the candid honesty that came in the response, though.

“I would say I’ve struggled with my battles with depression,” he said, seemingly uncomfortable about broaching the subject. “I’ve never been to the doctors about it, but I would say, and people around me would probably say ‘yes, you’ve been awfully depressed at times.”

He continued: “In those times, I have done some very stupid things… I got in my car, p**sed as a fart (British slang for very drunk). I got in that car with the intention of not getting back out of it.”

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He went on to say that not only did he put himself in danger, but he put other people in danger too, calling it “one of the most stupid things I’ve ever done in my life” and that it was “very selfish.”

He then confessed that he had a moment of realization while on his “rampage,” and simply asked himself what he was doing, imagining how everybody who cared about him would react if he did do that.

It got increasingly emotional as the story went on, with Payne clearly still feeling upset about the ordeal – but, fortunately, he clearly realizes the error of his ways and is thriving today, with both himself and the Sidemen bigger and more successful than they ever have been.

If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or know anyone that is, and you would like to talk to someone, please reach out and call the Suicide Prevention Helpline 1-800-273-8255 (USA) or the Samaritans 116-123 (UK).


Tommyinnit reveals he used to stream snipe Shroud before he was famous

Published: 20/Jan/2021 11:22 Updated: 20/Jan/2021 11:27

by Calum Patterson


Tommyinnit might be the most popular streamer on Twitch right now, averaging over 200,000 concurrent viewers for his sporadic Minecraft streams, but it turns out he used to be a massive shroud fanboy. In fact, he was one of shroud’s infamous stream snipers.

Stream sniping is the practice of using a streamer’s broadcast to gain information about the game they are playing – either to get an unfair advantage, or simply to join their game and troll them.

During the height of PUBG’s popularity in 2017, shroud was the biggest streamer on Twitch, and had an army of loyal stream snipers who would try endlessly to get into his matches.

Shroud’s stream snipers weren’t like others though – instead of trying to kill him, they would sing him songs, give him weapons and armor, or try to save his life when under attack.

Tommyinnit stream sniping shroud
Twitch: Shroud
Tommyinnit would get into shroud’s game’s to troll.

Tommyinnit admits shroud stream sniping

Although it’s against the rules of most games and of Twitch itself, Tommyinnit has admitted that when he was 14, back in 2017, he loved both PUBG and shroud, and would spend hours up late trying to get into his games.

And he was successful too – often matching up with him, and trying to save his life from actual enemies attacking him. Shroud eventually became familiar with Tommy’s name, and would say hello to him. In a video on his second channel, Tommyoutit, came clean about all of his stream sniping antics.

In one session, shroud even talked to Tommy about playing Minecraft, the game that he’s so well-known for now.

But, it turns out that Tommyinnit made this video because it wasn’t just years ago in PUBG that he was stream sniping shroud. When he recently saw shroud on a Minecraft server with proximity chat, he had to try it again for old times sake.

Unfortunately, shroud didn’t seem to be enjoying himself at all this time around, and soon after left the server – though not before killing Tommyinnit’s character, twice.

Although stream sniping is technically against the rules on Twitch, we’re sure the platform will let this one slide, as it was all in good fun. The real question is whether shroud has made the connection that one of his old stream snipers is now one of the biggest names on Twitch alongside him.