Behzinga opens up about suicide attempt and what stopped him

Published: 2/Jul/2020 17:12

by Jacob Hale


Popular UK YouTuber and Sidemen member Ethan ‘Behzinga’ Payne has opened up on one of the darkest times of his life, revealing a secret suicide attempt several years ago – and why he didn’t go ahead with it.

As part of the Sidemen, Behzinga is often seen as lighthearted and fun-loving, and this is a side of him that many fans will be completely unaware of and seem truly out of character.

In recent months, he has been documenting his incredible weight loss journey and even worked on the commentary desk for Sky Sports during the KSI vs Logan Paul YouTube boxing event.

Youtubers KSI and Behzinga
Instagram: behzingagram
Behzinga (right) is part of KSI’s YouTube group, the Sidemen.

Obviously, though, as with anyone else, Payne’s life and career hasn’t all been fun and games, as he spoke about during a YouTube video uploaded on July 1.

During the video, Behzinga took questions from fans that were, for the most part, funny and just a bit awkward, but one question, in particular, spurred Ethan to speak on troubles he has faced.

The question asked was a simple one: “What’s the hardest time you’ve had to go through?” Not many expected the candid honesty that came in the response, though.

“I would say I’ve struggled with my battles with depression,” he said, seemingly uncomfortable about broaching the subject. “I’ve never been to the doctors about it, but I would say, and people around me would probably say ‘yes, you’ve been awfully depressed at times.”

He continued: “In those times, I have done some very stupid things… I got in my car, p**sed as a fart (British slang for very drunk). I got in that car with the intention of not getting back out of it.”

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He went on to say that not only did he put himself in danger, but he put other people in danger too, calling it “one of the most stupid things I’ve ever done in my life” and that it was “very selfish.”

He then confessed that he had a moment of realization while on his “rampage,” and simply asked himself what he was doing, imagining how everybody who cared about him would react if he did do that.

It got increasingly emotional as the story went on, with Payne clearly still feeling upset about the ordeal – but, fortunately, he clearly realizes the error of his ways and is thriving today, with both himself and the Sidemen bigger and more successful than they ever have been.

If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or know anyone that is, and you would like to talk to someone, please reach out and call the Suicide Prevention Helpline 1-800-273-8255 (USA) or the Samaritans 116-123 (UK).


Addison Rae & Bryce Hall spark engagement rumors after cryptic ring post

Published: 15/Jan/2021 18:43

by Alice Hearing


TikTok’s hottest couple, Addison Rae and Bryce Hall, have sparked rumors that they might be getting engaged after Addison flexed a flashy ring on Instagram.

Bryce and Addison — affectionately referred to as ‘Braddison’ by shippers — are two of TikTok’s most popular content creators, who were long rumored to be secretly dating despite their repeated denial to the contrary.

However, on November 30, the two finally confirmed that they are officially dating, and have been together for nearly two months (although they did break up earlier this year after just three days together).

Since their surprise announcement, they haven’t held back with their lovey-dovey social media posts about each other, complete with cuddly, PDA-filled TikToks. And of course, while both creators are still so young, fans of the couple are eager for more content – especially if they decide to tie the knot in the future.

Bryce Hall Addison Rae relationship
Instagram: Bryce Hall
Bryce & Addison confirmed they were dating in November

On Thursday, January 14, Addison was spotted by paparazzi leaving XIV Karats LTD jewelry store in Beverly Hills – and  later on, posted a picture of a new sparkly ring on her ring finger to her Instagram story, leaving fans in a frenzy over what it might mean.

Addison Rae engaged
Instagram: Addison Rae
Addison posted an image of the ring on her Instagram story

Typically, an engagement ring is worn on the ring finger of the left hand, and with the way the picture was taken, it does look like it’s on her left hand.

However, while it has prompted speculation that the pair are or could potentially be getting engaged, discussion on drama Instagram account TikTokroom heavily suggests that the pair are getting each other promise rings, instead.

This is something that several famous TikTok couples have done to show their commitment to each other, including Cynthia Parker and Quinton Griggs, as well as Alex Warren and Kouvr Annon, so it wouldn’t be so surprising if this is the case.

Either way, Bryce and Addison are clearly about as lovey-dovey as they could possibly be at this point, and engagement ring or not, the pair look like they’re in it for the long-haul.