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YouTuber Imogenation tells heartbreaking story on social media hate

Published: 18/May/2020 12:36 Updated: 18/May/2020 12:40

by Jacob Hale


A popular make-up and beauty YouTuber has revealed the devastating effect hateful comments and social media trolling has on people’s mental health, with a heartbreaking video detailing her own personal struggles.

Imogenation, who is closing in on 400,000 subscribers at the time of writing, starts the video clearly struggling to even speak to the camera, let alone share the sad footage that ensues.

What follows is a week’s worth of footage and behind-the-scenes moments that show a usually high-spirited, happy woman unable to create her videos properly, having emotional breakdowns, and clearly in a poor mental state.

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Imogenation says she’s usually eccentric and quirky, but that she “can’t be herself anymore.”

The video – which lasts 31 minutes – sees Imogenation (real name Imogen Horton) frequently attempting to create her usual videos, but barely able to get past the start before losing traction.

In the very first clip, after frequently trying to get things right, Imogen is forced to stop, saying: “I’m so angry that I’m allowing this to get to me. Honestly, looking in that viewfinder, I could literally pick out 100 things that’s wrong with me.”

She goes on to say that she “doesn’t know how to get back to being herself,” adding that she has “lost her spark, and I feel like that was the best thing about me.”

Following that, you see a different setting, clearly from the filming of a different video, where Imogen has a full-blown panic attack, followed by confessions over how anxiety stops her sleeping and causes stomach pains that look near-debilitating.

She goes on to speak about how she took a break from social media but, immediately upon returning, found hate messages and comments that she makes an effort to delete and report, but says that just having hateful comments there at all makes her worried that other people will see it and judge her.

In the final minutes of the video, it becomes clear where Imogen’s mindset is at. “I just want to go back to being me,” she says. “I haven’t been out of the house for a week. I hate myself for allowing them to win. I just want to be me again.”

Imogen committed to donating all money made from the video to MIND mental health charity, and provided multiple links and helplines to assist others in similar situations.

If you or a loved one is struggling with mental health issues, and would like to talk to someone, please reach out to your local hotline.

Suicide Prevention Lifeline USA: 1-800-273-8255
Samaritans UK: 116-123
Lifeline Australia: 13 11 14


Rookie Twitch streamer tears up after finally getting first viewers

Published: 16/Jan/2021 15:49

by Georgina Smith


New Twitch streamer NickCKelly got emotional on stream when he got his first viewers after waiting for nearly an hour, gaining thousands as followers as a result of his wholesome reaction.

2020 was a booming year for Twitch, with top creators like xQc and Valkyrae achieving huge numbers in terms of followers and views, and several gaming trends surging in popularity at various points in the year, meaning success all around.

With these huge creators out here smashing records, it’s easy to forget that many are only just starting out their venture into streaming, both casually and seriously.

This year has no doubt prompted more people than ever before to give streaming a try, but it’s not as easy as it might seem from the outside – especially if you’re starting from zero.

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2020 helped Twitch do massive numbers all round.

NickCKelly was one such individual who wanted to give streaming a go, and he couldn’t have been more grateful when he eventually got his first viewers after a while on stream by himself.

He had been streaming for almost an hour when he noticed that some viewers had joined his previously empty chat, and he looked stunned.

“I have my first viewer, hi!” Nick said, looking taken aback by the sudden appearance. “Wow, this is amazing. I’m genuinely honored to have you in my stream, you’re my first viewer that I’ve had, I’ve been streaming for 48 minutes.”

“I feel like I’m gonna cry, man,” he said with the most wholesome reaction possible, tearing up as he spoke to his new viewers.

Over on Reddit, user Avoxio who found Nick’s stream explained why they entered his empty stream. “Me and some friends were scrolling through twitch and found this guy. His stream title got us intrigued so we decided to stop by.”

They also said “at first we thought he was trolling so we messed around a bit not thinking anything of it, throughout our conversation we realized that he was being genuine,” and said they decided to share his stream in hopes of getting him recognition.

Nick also responded in the comments: “I will not let you all down. I want to prove to people that there is goodness in the world, and that we are capable of so much more than most think. I think there’s so much pain and suffering in the world right now. Helping even a single person is making a difference in the world.”

The unexpected reaction from the small streamer certainly seemed to strike a chord with some viewers, and Nick has now shot up to 4.7 thousand followers at the time of writing.