FouseyTube opens up about “manic episode” that led to social media hiatus

❘ Published: 2019-01-09T18:55:00

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Fans of Yousef ‘FouseyTube’ Erakat were stunned when the popular figure went silent on social media, but an update on his whereabouts has revealed the turmoil and strife the 28-year-old had endured.

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At the height of FouseyTube’s career, he had amassed an incredible following of over 10 million subscribers on YouTube, and acheived equally impressive feats on Twitter and Instagram but inexplicably purged all accounts in the summer of 2018.

In an Instagram post, FouseyTube explained the mental and emotional strain his career had put on his well-being, mired further by his decision to “foolishly” replace his prescribed drugs with Adderall that gave him a false sense of comfort.

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This summer I suffered a very public and humiliating manic episode that really flipped my life upside down. I had just come off of my medications for the first time in years and foolishly used adderall as a substitute. What I thought was new found motivation and inspiration was really an out of control manic episode that took control of me and changed my life forever. There’s much to the story that is yet to be explained. I’ve fallen many times in my life. But this year was the first time I actually hit rock bottom. They say that when you hit rock bottom, you experience something magical in your life that is forever life changing. I’ve yet to see the magic it brings. In a single summer, I managed to lose all my money, cars, public respect, self respect, love, worth and even almost my parents home. Most importantly I lost the identity that I had built for myself to mask who I really was since the age of 21. I grew up in my 20’s living and hiding behind a camera. Using social media as a drug to escape from my real problems. I managed to flush a decade worth of work down the toilet and was back to square 1 lower than when I began. Thankfully, I still have family, food and my parents roof over my head. Since the Summer, I have been trying my best to get help. From going on a spiritual journey (only to return early because they felt I wasn’t safe to be alone in my mental state and advised me to fly home to family), countless therapy sessions, getting on and off different medications looking for the right one and even outpatient rehab. I have yet to find my resolve. Even writing this, I am not in the right mental state nor healthy enough to be on social media. I am still on the path to recovery, with no end date in sight. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ All in all, I’m posting this to say I am very grateful for 2018 to be over. Enough has happened in my life publicly and even more behind the scenes where my prayers are for nothing new to creep into 2019. To anyone struggling and battling their own demons, just know you’re not alone. Life is a constant battle of ups and downs and the key is..well I don’t know the key yet.. but there is a key. Happy New Years. :heart:️

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Fans had hints that not all was right with Fousey’s mental state, as growing concerns loomed around his explosive tirade atop a vehicle after his planned “Hate Dies, Love Arrives” concert was cancelled due to a bomb threat.

“I’ve fallen many times in my life,” FouseyTube said. “But this year was the first time I actually hit rock bottom.”

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FouseyTube had made a career as a vlogger, pranker, comedian, hilarious skit producer, etc., but the woes and pressure of his situation had taken him to lose “the identity that [he] had built for [himself].”

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Before his absence, YouTuber had an award-winning career and a huge following.

Even in the ways of recovery, FouseyTube found it difficult to stay on a corrective path as he’s tried “going on a spiritual journey, countless therapy sessions, getting on and off different medications looking for the right one and even outpatient rehab.”

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Although the internet personality had settled into a lucrative lifestyle due to his fame, FouseyTube says he’s now back at “square one” and looks to start a rebuild in 2019.