UPDATE 12:25PM PST October 27:
The FaZe Clan star claims that he’s feeling much better today, and that yesterday’s events were a “volcanic eruption.”
The incredibly concerning messages first appeared on his Twitter page on October 26, and started out with the YouTube personality saying that he was tired of people trying to tell him that life is worth living, and that he “doesn’t want to be here” any more.
“F*CK EVERYONE!” he tweeted. “When I tell people I don’t want to be alive anymore, everyone and their mother just tells me the opposite. Well what if I don’t WANT to?”
Rain stated that he’s not “crazy” or “saying things for attention”, but that he’d simply had enough of life, and didn’t want to accept help.
“I don’t need help, I’m not crazy I just bounce back and forth with wanting to die, and being okay with waiting until my time comes,” he said. “I just don’t want a part of this any more, and when I say that I’M AUTOMATICALLY… crazy.”
He addressed his girlfriend, his pet, and his family and friends, and said that although he’s loved “unconditionally”, it’s just not enough. “ I just still don’t want this life,” Rain tweeted. “I can’t express that enough.”
The YouTuber then called out FaZe Clan, claiming that nobody in the organization cares about him, and that he’s just a negative number to them.
“Haven’t made a dollar off FaZe, I’m just negative hundreds of thousands,” he stated. “None of them give a fuck about me.”
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He also called out a fellow unnamed FaZe Clan member, and stated that they went through a similar situation with their mental health, and that he did everything he could to be there for them, but now they’re not returning the favor.
“I was always there. Went out of my way to visit him and bring him stuff in a facility. Now that I’ve needed the same help, he’s been nowhere to be found. #FaZeUp,” he tweeted.
Rain concluded his string of tweets with a worrying claim that everything was “his fault” and that he’s “sorry” he let people down, before ending with “goodf*ckingbye.”
At the time of writing, the YouTuber has gone silent on social media, leaving many fans and friends worried about his safety and wellbeing.
FaZe Rain has been open with his mental health before, and spoke out about his struggle with depression in July 2018.
“Mid-April, I had my worst mental breakdown. I went through them pretty much every other day,” he admitted. “Some sh*t happened. Self-harm sh*t. Ended up in a hospital for a few days, and then I ended up in a psych ward.”
If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or know anyone that is, and you would like to talk to someone, please reach out and call the Suicide Prevention Helpline 1-800-273-8255 (USA) or the Samaritans 116-123 (UK).